Remember the times we talked past midnight? Now it's just me and the black dog. You're in exile. I live in a wind tunnel that bends light and time. And the black dog sits in the corner and snarls.
I am afraid of his bite. So I keep running. Hoping he'll never catch me. But he's fast. God knows he's fast. And those memories of you which once gave me wings… now they just weigh me down. And it feels like I'm wading through mud.
But I remember. Oh God I remember.
The days when the thought of you gave me flight.
I would walk on my smile from day to day.
Those hours and weeks and months were all you.
(With the black dog at bay.)
And you. In, between and through.
It was just you.
But now it's all me,
and the curled lip of that lap dog that lives in the corner.
Comments
charlie:morts
Aaaah soul sister....
what a beautiful piece this is. It's like a homecoming ritual to me.
So...
When the black hound bays, even the moon seeks a cloud to cower behind....
but I -
have laid down a soft pillow for him, for surely he must weary of chasing his own shadow over the endless miles?
I do not cower. He knows me, and I him - I move quietly towards him when he enters my rooms - and curl into the hollow of his ever-empty belly - listening to the slow roar of his heart - because it has come to be the only familiar and predictable factor in my life.
Better the beast you know...
morts:CP
I have some of your words written down in a book. I don't know where the book is right now. There's so much writing now that much of it falls off the edges of my world. But if I do stumble across it one day alongside the memories of parcels opened or sent I would write the words:
"but I -
have laid down a soft pillow for him."
CP
Goose-bumpingly evocative and powerful.
Freeman
Thank you. Appreciated.
Yikes
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