Am I that easy to disregard if I knew I could honestly say we spoke about the father the son and the holy ghost maybe I should fade\away from your life give you peace I will carry this box until my death locked away all my dreams trying to hold on tight to the burning fire in my heart there I go combustion of my soul my blood is ice in my veins you stole from my lips the words that meant everything at least I know now how my soul is white my god is coming to get me I have to find my own way back to understand how easy it is like a lost puppy left in the car I guess I am just not that important my last traitorous thoughts I see my friend when I leave the exposed wound that shows the flesh and bone withered black and my little house that will never be good enough I will never understand how I leave my chest split open awaiting infection for the first time I would love to drown myself .