well i been kissed by death and im still here. fuck YEAH...
WTF been happening . anyone wanna fill me in ?

Answers Please

Passion
Desire
The will to live
The right to wrong
Truth in lies
Tears theyve cried
The hearts I have broken
Drowning my sorrow in their pain
Hanging on the coldness of their tears
Laughing at the honesty
In what they say
This is who I have become
This is what you made of me
Thank you for the pain
I treasure the lessons you taught me
I have grown up to be you
I am your son

After you grow some hair on your nuts
The bullshit clears as you have sex for the first time
No protection needed even though it never crossed your mind
You done you a man and the first sign is thinking she having your baby but she not
Those thoughts alone bring us all into the real world
Behind the drunken laughs of people you start to see things for what they are

Time starts where it ends
Friendship turns to emotions unknown
Attitude adjusts to stupidity
Here i stand with this look on my face
Good intensions usually misplaced
Misunderstood by myself
To me im a disgraced
Searching for a feeling that cant be replaced
Now your sunshines my rain
Your happiness my pain
My stupidity your name
My dreams that you in
These tears that fall

She takes control as shes about to climax
Arches her back tilts her head back she leans back
Screams a name not known to the man beneath her
Puzzled but satisfied as he laid back with a grin on his face
She moans in seduction as she is about to conclude their meeting
Lays back as her body calms itself, she leans forward to kiss him

She calls me at night just to say sleep tight
We both cant hang up or so it seems
Whats this connection I feel what does it mean
Nights I lay sleepless thinking of her
Confused I feel trying to figure out her intensions
Humbled by the thought of not been along
Afraid for my hearts stability thats linked to my sanity
Should my heart break what will my minds reaction be

Time losses its value in your eyes
Unconfirmed entrapment
Blissful insanity
Right beside you is where I have to be
Going against my instinct
I am a puppet at your mercy
As you run your nails down my back
Trapped in the moment that is not meant to be
Stuck in a reality thats only real to me
Unbalanced equation and my answers not you
Still in your eyes I see it I feel you true

And your thoughts are...?

If only it was

Sinking into the coldness of my tears
Emotions piercing through my body
From the inside of an uncertain mind
The thoughts of a child brutalized by reality
No need to smile cant even fake it
As my eyes pull all that look in them
Into a world of pain sanity cant be regained

My life shatters into fragments of unkind memories
Time stands still as the first tear rushes from my eyes
The world not knowing what is happening to me
Overwhelmed with love but still feel there is no hope
Drowning in the sorrow of my tears as life fades rapidly
Into the sunset to an unending darkness that cant be called night
I scream but nobody hears it but me no one else in my mind

In the irony of what is that differs from what it should be
I find myself restless fighting a battle thats the core of my being
This war with no reason I feel I cant carry on believing
With the weight of the world on my shoulders not getting stronger
Trying to stand up with no ground under my feet still not defeated
All I need right now is a place, my sanctuary, my temple, my heaven

Deep in my heart lay questions of trust
Foundations I built my life on
The reason Im no more than I really am
Simple but complex to the scheming mind
A traveler in this world of life
Home is where I lay my head down
Determined but no one escapes it alive
Dreams are what make this existence reality
But a world of dreams isnt meant to be
Still I wonder what it would be like

Second guessing my self in my mind
Still not knowing what the answer is
Then again the secret to life
Is not to answer the questions
That over flow your mind
And change you opinion
But just knowing that these questions exist
Those with answers have passed on and looked back
Us with the questions live on and look forward
But in a way still looking back

Recap

Poetic Justice (Part 1)

Lust filled eyes as she walked in the room
Slammed the door behind her
I know whats going to happen soon
She took four steps forward
Left her stilettos two steps behind
Put her hand against my chest
I laid back she brushed her fingers down my face
Sat on my lap my hands on her waist
Pulled into me and she softly kissed my lips

Perception overclouded by unforeseen emotion
Reality of human nature still raveled in mystery
Confused he stands with one way to go
This is not the path his chosen for himself
Miscalculated his destiny is still a secret to him
Not accustom to just taking whats been given
Always paving his own roads begging his soul be forgiven
Not much choice as his heart takes control

Tender touch of your lips
Against my ability to smile for this
Time moves with my emotion
Frozen in solidarity emotionless love

Me ontop of you
You ontop of me
Don't really mater
Lets get freaky