Tinkerbelle's blog

Dust from my crushed
petrified heart
scatters in the breeze
as you close the door.

My lover, my friend
The pain I felt so acutely
Memories of you
That burned like hot embers
My want for you
My need for you
Has slowly transformed
Into a dull but yet ever present ache
A warm comforting glow
Of the love we once shared.
Perhaps in another life time
Another space
We will meet again
Remembering
That we were blessed
With our love.

Our paths have diverged once more

My contribution to the 100 word thingy…

You have become the
yard-stick by which
I measure all men
You set the bar
too high for the rest
And even though
you have moved on
beyond my reach
you will always be
my touchstone.

I'll add more when I've woken up...

The essence of your soul
Radiates a halo
Of perfect white light, blinding
Piercing the blackness of our secrets
Hidden but never forgotten
On the day
That day
That you left me.

Silver beams cutting like a sword
Plunging into me
Up to the hilt
Tearing, slicing
through the blackness
at last, strikes a prism
and is dispersed
shattered
into all the colors of
our love.

Faint flickering
Of light in the distance
Are you still there?
In the mists of the
Bygone years
Almost a memory
Not quite a dream
But a hope
That you will guide me
Back to us.

We lost each other
Somewhere along this path
Of our lives
Only now to see clearly
Our destiny
Our fate
Is to meet again, perhaps
If only to remember
The love
we once shared.

I want to look behind

It's a bit early for the challenge but I'm not going to be around later so if no one minds, I'll post it now....

“Jenna, don’t do it! You hardly even know the guy!”
“I do SO know him…I’ve known him all my life, remember?”
“Oh, come on... that was YEARS ago. People change, you know.”

Swollen broken brow
Your sneering mouth kisses me
Soaring, I am absent.

Long and winding road
straight into the gates of hell
Hallowed dark angels
beckon to us come
into the shadows
away from the light
We are blinded
by the light
blinded by the darkness.

Velvety rose coloures
memories of yesterday
Jagged, harsh, ugly today
will tomorrow be ground
smooth softened
diluted sugar coated bitterness
of my pain and regret.

Tomorrow my memories
taste of sweet sunshine
of sea air, of promise
of self worth.

Then, now and then?
My yesterdays are golden
I want to make
Them my tomorrow
But what of today?
Yesterday is still part

Has anyone pee'd for longer than 55 secomds?

I am empty inside
I have no more tears to shed.
Memories of you will linger
For as long as I breathe.

I am filled to the brim inside
With regrets and lots opportunities
Thoughts of you will linger
For as long as I breathe.

I am alone in my world
Of self made solitude.
Your touch will linger
For as long as I breathe.

And yet, taking stock
I have no fear of the future

Memories of us
are draining me away
from myself.
The tide has pulled back
exposing bear sand
and rocks.
But also some beautiful new life
that I thought I'd lost.
I needed time to breathe
to draw in warmth from the
morning sunlight
to rejuvinate.
I feel the tide slowly comming in
lapping at my feet
I am ready.
At last, the tide has turned.

We both knew that what we had for the past few years was “over”. It had to be. There was no way around it. That tingling feeling in the back of my throat, my vision becoming blurred, I turned away from you. I didn’t want you to see me cry. In a soft voice you said “Look at me”…I turned my head slowly, looking into those pale blue, sad eyes.

Is it really feasabile to really love two men at the same time?

My mood is in the weather
cold, grey
perhaps tomorrow
the sun will shine
but no
my winter is
here to stay.

Layers of clothing
cannot warm me
only you
only you
can bring me back
into the warmth
of you.

I fear this tangible infinity.
This void that suffocates me.
This flat line boiling with
volcanic under-currents.

Like twin supa novas
Imploding into each other
A black hole in space and time
Drawing all the matter
of us in.

I reach for you
from the blackness of my space.
For your light.
But time is warped
unforgiving, unrelenting.

We live in parallel universes

After having 4 dounble Jacks with a frined, I feel the urge to purge....I need to shag this man. No holds barred. I need him to take me any way he wishes, tie me down, tire me up.....golden shower, botty sex...whagever he wants...I NEED him RIGHT NOW!!!!!

For the longest of time, I have known him. He has been in my memories, my dreams and my daily life forever. The connection we had trancended our every-day bullshit. He knows me. I know him. We knew us. The school-girl crush, the crazy "in love" passion that we felt never died. Not a day goes by that thoughts of him don't creep into my conciousness.

Our souls fused burning
in the melting pot of us
too hot too bright broken.